Begging for roots

There's a part deep within me 

that's begging for roots 

I see it in the way I carry myself 

mellow now, with a spark few get to know. 

But I know the time isn't quite right 

and I won't apologize for the way I make the pain feel light. 

Simply put, I'm happily sad, but I'm so sure 

that making peace is the one thing left to have.