The Grief of Healing

No one talks about the grief 

that comes with getting better.

This ailment, however minor, affected me 

It changed my behavior 

My personality 

The way I viewed life

Is it bad to say I preferred it? 

I liked feeling detached.

Now I’m so

so invested 

And it’s killing me 

every time I’m sad

How did I do this before?

Returning to a version of myself

that isn’t quite whole,

because time and circumstance

are still in the fold

I know I’ll never be fully healed,

but I’m close

and it’s strange,

being here.